the mess that was 2019

so new year’s eve was two days ago. well, that was definitely something.

our house turned into some kind of holiday home and my cousins’ entire family who came over for the christmas holidays ended up staying with us till yesterday. it was a mess of old people and a lot of noisy adults and a kid cousin who used a million printer papers to make a katana or something. oh, and one sane cousin (let’s call her G) who’s my age and made all of it worth the while, i guess.

okay, i lied. she’s insane.

new year to our family isn’t actually a big deal. maybe it’s because the traditional indian new year was ages ago. but for me, it was a big deal. the year had been a whirlwind. and the beginning 2020 was something special to me. something symbolic, i guess, some sort of relief.

we didn’t feast on new year’s eve, we ate the spicy ramen that we got from the grocery store. the dancing only lasted till 10:30 pm, and then the lights were out. me and my cousin were exhausted but also pretty determined to make it till 12, so G and i stayed up watching movies in the dark.

and when it was almost midnight we pulled ourselves out of the tangle of sheets and pillows and hurried out, and when the fireworks started we played the song uchiagehanabi (from the movie fireworks) as loud as we could.

12:00 pm was cold air and our bodies tangled together and music and squealing every time a firework lit up the sky. and then there were the lanterns. we never found out who sent them up, and we watched them until they were little red dots in the sky.

new year’s eve wasn’t a grand party, but it was the best i could ask for. standing outside, with the cold wind biting at my skin with my best friend who happens to be my cousin sidled up against me, the snores of my amazing family who i couldn’t ask more of, and the fireworks exploding into a million little sparks, i felt so blessed. i felt the happiest i had ever felt in the entire year.

and just like that, 2019 was over.

it was loud, and messy, but it was beautiful. 2019 was hard, painful and weird and blurry and I’m never going to get it back. 2019 was a firework; it came, it lit up and exploded with light and colour, and then it slowly faded away.

Digital Art – “Cosmos”

For a friend I once had, who watched documentaries about galaxies and had stardust in her blood.

You taught me the courage of stars before you left
How light carries on endlessly, even after death.
With shortness of breath, you explained the infinite
How rare and beautiful it is to even exist.

”Saturn” – Sleeping at Last
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The End of the Year Book Tag + Write in the Dark Blog Tour

Sooo Daria nominated me for the End of the Year Book Tag which is a sad reminder that the year is ending and I’m choking pitifully under the weight of my TBR.

Let’s face it. 2019 is e n d i n g.

This year was such a whirlwind (which may or may not be a good thing) and I don’t even know where the time went, it’s like someone stole it from right under my nose. I DEMAND JUSTICE.

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The Diamond Village Blog Tour// Character Reveal and Much Screaming

Hey, everyone!

I’m really excited to be doing this post because it’s my turn to introduce to the world…

*drumroll please*

…a collab blog full of magic, mayhem and wonder!

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Sparkler Photoshoot 🌟 (and a Long Overdue Announcement)

Hellloooo peeps! I’m feeling good today, even though I twisted my arm really bad and I’m currently sitting with a polka-dot hot water pack on my shoulder.

For those of you who didn’t know, Diwali was a couple days back! Diwali is the Indian festival of lights, and also an excuse for fireworks and eating sweet things. 🤤

We didn’t do much of the fireworks part this year, but I did manage to get some really good closeups of some sparklers!

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Reviewing 100 Days of Sunlight by Abbie Emmons! ✨

Many thanks to Netgalley and the author for providing me with a review copy! All opinions are purely my own.

HELLO WORLD! I am sToKeD to have the opportunity to be reviewing this gem of a book. May I present to you, the literal embodiment of perfection…

100 Days of Sunlight is a powerful and sensitive book about hope, courage, and the beauty in our world that we sometimes forget to see.

Also give me a moment to sob in a corner because that cover is killer.

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Some Sort of Update (feat. Music, Photography, Art, Food et cetera)

Wow. I don’t even remember the last time I wrote a post. It’s been MONTHS. I’ve been in a looong blogging slump. Also, a life slump.
I don’t know about you, but for me, motivation is a strange thing. It just randomly chooses to pop up, and randomly fades out.

Hello there! It’s me, trying to climb out of my slump.

I have mixed feelings about not having been here for a such long time. If anything, taking a break has eased the responsibility of maintaining a blog while keeping my life on track, which has become quite a challenge, to be honest. But I miss this place and this community SO much.

I just want to put everything I’ve done in these past few months in words. It’s going to abrupt and bumpy, probably, but I’m trying my best. XD Here goes nothing, people…


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Somewhere Else// An Aesthetic

I see so much ‘perfection’ in my world
Neatly paved roads and perfectly trimmed trees
Glass windows and people buried in mobile phones

Sometimes I want to go somewhere else
Where every breath of air is new, and there are
wildflowers on the streetside in place of shopping malls.

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